连续上了3天的Revision..
老实说,我不明白Lecturer在讲些什么..
是真的真的不明白...
 
我不晓得,是我没有用心在上课...
还是我真的对这一科没有兴趣呢?
是我太任性吗?明明知道我的Audit不好,
却还要向高难度挑战?
 
当初选Audit的原因..
是因为我的Audit真的很差...
我希望借这个机会修补之前F8的知识...
 
可是,我真的错了吧!P7真的很难...
我相信,如果我选P4或P5我一定不会像现在这样...
当Lecturer在讲解时,除了抄,我什么都不会...
觉得自己真的很没有用!
 
这几天在上课时,老板都有Call我,
老实说,有点反感...
我知道他不是故意打扰我的..
但是心里就觉得很反感... 唉..
还有我的Study leave,他还没批准呢...
希望他可以放过我,让我专心读书....
 
上天啊上天,我知道你一直都很眷顾我...
最后一科了,就让我顺顺利利及格吧...
真的不想再考试了...
 

Feel emo for the whole day...
For no reason...
Depressed maybe?
 
 
Purposely bought myself my favourite drinks..
Glass Jelly Roasted Milk Tea from chatime..
Just to cheer up myself...
And yea.. It does help..
But after few hours... Depressed again.. :(
 
Maybe due to the exam is around the corner..
I didn't even have time to prepared for my exam.
Progress test fall on wednesday,
And the best part is, I don't even start to revised my note yet..
 
My workloading keep on increase...
My job can never be finished!
Why? I really feel tired...
All my job drag today just because of my boss ask me to find a FILE!
After the file is found, I thought tat, Yea.. Finally I can do my works..
But... The stupid PC and Printer ruin my mood again..
I need more than 5min just to print a single paper and my PC just hang there!
This is amazing isn't? How can I deal with this everyday?
I really cannot tahan anymore!!
 
If I can't settled my job,
I don't think I can apply for my study leave..
I hope that I can get my half month study leave..
I really wish that I can pass my P7...
 
Too many things happen recently..
I can't even have time to analyse my feeling..
In the end, seems that the only person I can trust is myself..
 
Don't promise to always be there for someone,
and then leave when they need you the most..
 
This is the feeling I have right now..
You give me a feeling that.. You are just another him!
That's mean all this while, what you have told me is just bullshit?
I really thought.. Maybe.. Maybe you will be different...

I'm sick of these mixed signals.. I'm only human. I can't read your mind..
I think the best way to avoid disappointment is to not expect anything from anyone...
I should know this from the begining..


看着他和她的故事..
就不知不觉地会联想起之前发生的一切...
真的觉得自己好笨...
笨得无可救药...
 
一个男的如果不喜欢你了...
做得再多也没有用吧?
好像把自己弄得很Cheap似的!
 
如果他真的喜欢我,
他根本不会背叛!
他不会对除了我以外的女生献殷勤..
 
我真的不明白...
为什么男人可以这样子伤害女生..
不喜欢了,为什么就不要干脆分手?
干脆放过自己,也放过别人?
放过我,让我去寻找一个真心对我好的人啊?
 
干嘛总是要浪费女生的时间呢?
现在的我,26岁了...
难听点,朋友们都嫁人了...
剩下我一个,连男朋友都没有了...
 
会遇到一个对的人吗?
真的可以遇到一个不会伤害我的人吗?
我很想相信,但我很怕!
希望有一个人,可以给我勇气,
让我再相信爱... 

My mom pass me a form on Friday night and ask me fill for her..
It's an application form from NKF regarding the subsidy of dialysis for my dad 
We need to fill in the monthly household income and expenses every year
in order to apply for the subsidy from NKF
 
And this year, my mom just pass me the blank form..
Without supporting of income, expenses of our family members, even her one!
And I just manage to collected my own supporting yesterday night.
Planned to fill the form by tonight..
 
When I'm in the progress to fill up the form,
My mom suddenly came into my room ''scold'' me..
 
 
Mom: You fill the form already?
 
Me: I'm still in the progress.. But I don't have others supporting besides mine. So is it means that I only got to fill up my part?
 
Mom: What? We got to submit the form to NKF by 2molo. You told me you can only fill your part? If you cannot do it, then just tell me earlier! Now already 10pm and I still got to work 2molo.. Come on, pass me back all the things, I gao dim myself.. None of you can actually help me!
 
Me: Wtf you telling me this kind of shit! Did I said I don't want to help? It's just that none of you guys pass me the supporting documents! How can you expect me to fill up the things without supporting documents? Why not you tell me how much income I should fill for brothers and sister? You never give me any information and you expect me to do it?!?!
 
Mom: About Kinki, just follow last year will do. About others, I really don't know. Just ignore it..
 
Me: Excuse me, this has to be consistant with last year. Wtf u telling me! Follow last year? Then how about the supporting documents? How can your figure can be same as last year as your daughter already graduate from secondary school? Fine, why not you just sleep and I will do it for you by tonight!
 
 
This is my mom! Ridiculous!
I admit, maybe I drag from Friday till Sunday is my fault..
But she have to give me times to prepare my own supporting documents right?
And this is not the 1st time we filling the form, why can't you at least prepare yours to me?
 
This is not fair? Why you want to throw your temper to me?
Am I suppose to bear it? And why me?
You have 3 daughter and 1 son! And why me?
You are not the only who stress okay?
I got my own problems and own feelings too...
I have tons of jobs to be done, and do I even release my stress towards you?
 
Being nice to someone doesn't means that you guys can be too much!
Keep quiet doesn't mean I don't have my own feelings...
It's just that I don't like to let ppl worried about me..
 
I'm just tired... Tired of everythings...
May I just leave all of this and away from town for a couple of days?
I don't feel like staying here...


Celebrated Mid Autumn Festival with Bloody Ink Crew at my house..
My dad are the chef for the night ^^
 
This is my favourite - Fried Prawn
 
Special request from Kinki - Kai Lan with Salted Fish
 
Another favourite - Gu Lou Yok
 
This is delicious! Ma Yao Fish
 
Erm. I don't know what is this, but all of them just love it
 
Kam Heong Lala
 
Fried Siew Yok.. Too salty for me
 
Thai Style Tofu..
 
Herbs Chicken
 
Tofu Gang
 
 
Wondering when only I can learn cooking from my dad..
All this time I just know how to eat ^^
Hopefully I can cook one of this dishes by next year.. Hehe..

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