Siew Wei's Diary

凌晨四点钟… 正在做最后冲刺… 还有很多还没复习… 剩下的的还是最重要的… 是Examiner Article有提到的… 但我已经精疲力尽了… 真的好想好想现在就去睡…

我知道我自己，一睡就不会醒… 所以一定要硬着头皮读下去… 我其实是该死的… 下午浪费了半天… 现在只好补偿……

其实真的不晓得是否可以撑下去… 现在头脑开始不太能吸收了… 我坐下来更新这篇部落格的同时，身体放松下来，眼皮也跟着放松… 好眼困哦…

还是读多一下去睡好了… 准自己睡2小时… 过后读完了再睡吧… -_-z

又一个人在KFC读书了… 打算做最后的冲刺… 但不晓得为什么今天会觉得特别寂寞…

明天就考试了… 我竟然没有紧张的心情… 或许真的要到考试那一刻我才会紧张吧…

我的斗志真的没有了… 只想考完了就算了… 及格不及格就算了吧… 对于ACCA我真的没抱什么希望… 每次读的都不出，没读的全部都出… 已经做最坏的打算了…

虽然如此，我仍然会祈求神明保佑哦… 保佑我一击即中，不用考第二次… ^o^

昨晚自我安慰的说“不熬夜读书了，我一早起床读，或许效果会比较好”

谁知道昨晚在床上从十一点多滚到三点多还睡不着… 头痛死了！好不容易要睡着时，竟然风湿病发作… 更加辛苦… 那种痛苦简直笔墨难以形容…

睡到早上九点半就被逼起床了… 约了Andrew吃早餐… 拿着大小袋去Subway吃早餐，逼自己吃完后要读书…

结果我现在就在Subway喊头痛… 计划又失败了… 很后悔为什么自己不驾车… 若自己驾车就可以回家睡觉了… 现在真的不好意思要Andrew过来载我…

我真的很想睡啊！救命！

又一个人在McDonald读书了… 和往常不同的是，我好像没有了斗志… 想pass的心情都没有！一直想着好难… 好难…

其实真的好难，我知道不应该抱着会不及格的心情去考试… 但我真的真的做不到…

一边做PYQ一边在想死定了！还一边在责怪自己为什么那么懒… 但并不奇怪吧… 每次考试前都会这样… 我能怪谁？都是自己懒… 什么都不理… 明知道没时间了还要浪费时间… 唉！

这次还要学人家拿三科… 真是的… 为什么那么贪心呢？根本兼顾不到嘛！我现在真的怕会好像上次酱，全部FAIL完…

上次我是拿F level,这次是P Level... 唉… 我没有贪心到要全部都及格… 但至少让我Pass两科，可以吗？

我不晓得祈祷… 唯有用我的方式祈祷… 神啊，求求你让我及格… 我真的不想受考试的煎熬了…

Exam is around the corner.. According to my plan, I should start studying now.. Due to too many entertainment, I'm still very very lazy to start my revision.. Haih.. Hopefully I hv enough time to study..
About my work, I feel bad because due to my zero experience, I do the low quality work for the earlier job which is assign to me.. When I first do the account, I thought I cannot mixed client document, therefore I didn't do proper filing.. And therefore it's cause trouble for those who r checking my account.. I feel so sorry.. I will not do the same mistake in the future..

Boss said I should gao dim my job before on leave.. That is a lot!! I started to feel stress.. I not even start study yet, and I think I need OT everyday to gao dim my job.. Haih..

Hope everything go alright.. May god bless me...

I'm alone at McDonald's UO.. Today class from 10am to 9pm.. I was reluctant to wake up... Wish to sleep longer and wake up naturally.. I was lucky because Andrew fetch me today so I no need to park the dangerous place..

When arrived college, as usual, full of peoples.. It was hard to find a seat... Success to squeeze in the first row... The space is too small, need to hug my bag all the time... I really don't like this kind of environment...

I'm wondering, when only this kind of life will ends? When I will have a normal lifestyle? Without worry about exam...

Like my lecturer said:
No matter how, you will get bored to your current status, due to the same things you do over and over again.. So, you must always self motivate and make yourself feel fresh everyday...

I will find ways to motivate myself then... ^^

很讨厌weekend的class.. 人老了，开始怕寂寞... 在陌生的环境显得特别孤独... 以前觉得，一个人就一个人咯，没什么大不了... 现在？我很想放弃... 很想不要去上课.. 很想快点毕业...
读了整个月，都不懂自己读了什么...好失败... 工又找不到... haih... 觉得自己好像什么都没有... T_T

希望成绩快点出，希望快点及格.. 希望尽快毕业... 那就烦少一样东西了...