Finally read through the important accounting standards... I was supposed to finish it by last week.. Due to my laziness, I only managed to do so until now...


I'm alone at KFC again.. The feeling of this kind of loneliness really hard to described by words... I really hope that someone can study with me, discuss with me or teach me how to answer the paper... Well.. This is just a dreams since many years ago.. Its already 4 years Im  study ACCA.. Everytime when exam, I have to face it alone, study alone.. I'm wondering, when this kind of life will be end?


When I studying alone, those bad feelings suddenly appears in my mind again.. Around last year, this moment.. I'm still busy preparing for my exam... All the bad things start happening... It remind Me how silly am I at that point of time... No matter how, what happened is already happened, I really can't do anything to restore it anymore.. I'm still stupid as usual, but at least now with a sceptical mind before blindly believe others.. I assume this is a good move...


God.. I admit that P7 is really hard... Can you help me to get through this? This is my last paper already.. If I can go through it, I would started to have normal life as others.. Please.. Help me for the last time..


这个月...
消费特别多...
身体检查,打针,朋友结婚,保险等等..
所有的消费都在这个月...
 
好穷哦...
原本打算在这两个月买电话...
也只好无限期延迟了...
 
我真的觉得自己好没有用..
别人到我这个年纪...
哪有还有像我这样...
户口没钱,欠一大堆债...还要烦考试费,学费的呢?
 
钱,真的不够用...
每个月拿了工钱...
1/2的工钱就要还钱,和给妈妈...
剩下的1/2,要给保险,吃喝玩乐,保养车等等...
到底每个月,我还可以存多少呢?
 
我真的很失败...
我希望我可以赚好多好多钱..
起码日常生活的需要可以应付...
 
我不是怪家里没有钱...
我只是很羡慕那些没有家庭负担的人...

下午三点钟,别人正在忙着工作,而我却在强迫自己不可以呆在家,一定要出来读书… 我很希望,这一次是最后一次了… 这种生活,很难受… 半个月的无薪假期,工作都要一拖再拖… 唉… 昨晚还在因为那些有完沒完的工作睡不着呢!


我越是逼自己要加油,换来的只是无止境的逃避… 昨晚看了一整天的戏,前晚出了一整天… 对,我是该死… 但就是控制不了…


19号了,我为考试做了些什么呢? 没有,什么都没有! 我这该死的笨蛋! 还有13天,希望我来得及吸收这半年来学过的东西吧! 加油!


我实在太懒了...
又白白浪费了一天...
今天,竟然花了一整天看Warehouse13...
一集一集的看... 停不下来啊!
我真的该死!
每次考试前都特别容易被其它东西诱惑...
 
这种该死的性格到底几时才会改啊?
考试不及格时,又再那边后悔...
我真是无可药救了啊!
 
黄晓薇,请你努力点,可以吗?

看回两年前的照片...
就短短的两年.. 为什么样子有那么大的差别呢?
总觉得我的脸上好像少了光泽似的..
是头发颜色的问题吗?
我该把头发染成黑色了吧...
还是Aging?糟糕了...
人家常说过了25就会慢慢体会到皮肤的变化..
真是真的!:(
我是真的察觉到的...
是我真的老了,还是这份工把我摧残成这样的呢?
 
 
两年前的照片
 
 
 
一年前的照片
 
 
 
现在的照片
 


开始On leave了...
生活过得蛮悠闲的..
早上他的投资顾问和他有约,
我也抽热闹的听听有关投资的意见..
 
下午,特地去Mid Valley的City Bank counter申请信用卡..
结果还是不行... 我没有任何Record,结果还是拒绝了我的申请..
为什么申请一张卡都那么难呢?
搞得我都不想申请了啦!
 
这两天,想换个环境读书,
结果选择了在他家过夜..
他说我总是爱把他的房间弄得惨不忍睹...
我不在时,他的房间真的很干净...
当我在时,桌上全都是我的东西...
东一个,西一个的...
难怪他那么不爽...
 
老实说,我真的没有心情读书...
今天也无所事事的逃避了一整天...
从明天开始,我要加油了吧...
不可以再这么懒惰了...
 
刚刚看回自己写过的心情..
感觉还蛮不错的..
好像把自己的回忆阅读一遍似的...
 
其实,写部落格的原因..
只是想释放自己的情绪..
也想让想懂我的人可以接触我的内心..
毕竟,真正懂我的人应该没几个人吧...


Exam is around the corner...
I'm trying my best to complete my on going task before on leave..
But my boss just won't understand...
He know very well I'm going to on leave...
IF he is good in management or planning..
He shouldn't pass me any job or should plan to pass my workload to others right?
At least when I'm not around, someone can do my job right?
 
But he didn't! Even a client make a payment,
He still wan me to record even he can do it by himself!
WTF he is thinking actually? He thought I very free is it?
 
I understand that I should complete all the given task...
But not that excessive! It's too much!
I'm ok if he ask me do billing for company, I'm willing to help..
But what to do with customer payment with billing?
Customer don't wan to pay, is my fault?
Ur EX staff didn't issue invoice on time is my fault?
U can't claim ur fee also my fault?
 
I really sick of you! It's enough pls!
Once a client come, I shall check on the outstanding fee they owing...
I'm willing to do so if your office have the latest PC but not such IDIOT PC!
Do u ever know that everytime I'm trying to print a statement,
15min is wasted just for printing 1 single statement!
And not only 1 statement I gonna print!
1 to 2 hour wasted just for 1 client!
And all my job drag behind just because of you!

My job is issue invoice is that mean that I know how much should charged?
At least if you want me to issue invoice,
proper details you should give me right?
WTF you give me a total amount and expect me to  issue invoice for Secretarial dept?
You r totally wasting my time! Do u know how long I gonna use just for issue that particular bill?
 
If I can't do my job on time, you r the one who blame me!
I'm really tired... Tired of every shit that you gave!
I hope you still remember what position that I'm applied!
It's AUDIT ASSISTANT! Not admin okay?
 
What do you mean by if can't finish your job, OT LAR?
Is that reasonable that I got to OT until 10pm everyday?
Now is OFF PEAK already, everyone is enjoying their off peak period..
I thought I will have enough time to do my revision on P7...
Who knows? Everytime I back at 8pm you blame me for back early...
Saturday and Sunday force me to work...
You really thought that our time must be contribute to you?
We got to 24 hours on call?
 
It's okay if i willing to work on weekend... But not being force pls!!
I need some time for myself...  I hope I can do what I like...
But not being workaholics....
 
God! If you can hear me...
Can you please help me go through this?
I really hope I can pass my exam this round...
And I hope I can find a job that I really wanted..
At least a job that I can learn proper way to audit / accounts...


我想应该是太久没有过单身的生活了吧..
总觉得不习惯似的...
有时候想看看电影,却找不到一个伴..
想去旅行,发觉连一个伴都没有...
 
大概10年没有过单身的生活了吧..
单身是不错,但在周末和假期会显得特别孤单..
 
不想单身,但更加不想随便谈恋爱..
很矛盾,对吧... ^^
这就是我... 自相矛盾得不得了...
 
无意中听到丁当的一半
这首歌唱出我心中的感受...
 
 
丁当 ~ 一半
 
 
 
喝酒的伴 一起看電影的伴
早午晚餐的那個伴
朋友不能留得太晚 明天要上班
唱K的伴 一起去旅行的伴
聽懂我的笑話的伴
我的生活 只差那個人就美滿

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喝一碗湯
心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
節日卻提醒我孤單

沒有想法 有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個留言安慰不了 心裡的遺憾
沒有負擔 原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羨慕我 那要不要跟我交換

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喝一碗湯 心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填滿
別來提醒 我的孤單

快樂少一人分享 快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯 心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單 這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬
沒人分享 幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
沒人知道 我多孤單
 



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