Siew Wei's Diary

Today was a very tough day for me..

My works are like, never end...

I was wondering, when can I actually complete all my job..

Do I have the chance like sitting in front of the PC

and browse Facebook, twitter, gossip, drinkin coffee or tea just like others?

 

The workloads are a lots, plus the computer are terrible slow!

It's actually equal to I will never complete my job on time...

Can you imagine how frustrated I am?

 

I really wish to go for a short holiday...

Perhaps 2days 1 night?

Just for relaxing my mind...

Enjoy the nature... Without stress...

 

Well, this was just a dream right?

Every of my friend need to work...

I'm wondering who's free to accompany go for this short trip..



Find myself hard to believe in love...

Apparently, all the guys are the same isn't?

I really cannot differentiate who is truly treat me well

or whether they have a intention to hurt me...

 

Is that really difficult to find

Guys who don't cheat?

Guys who treat me well?

Guys who loves being with me?

Guys who send cute 'good morning' texts to me everyday, just to cheer me up?

 

I'm afraid, really afraid of the one I care will disappoint me...

I really cannot accept that my man to have another girls inside his heart...

I cannot accept that my man flirt around with other gals..

It was really hard for me to get over it..

To be honest, I still can feel the pain even it happened few months ago..

 

I believe that everybody knows how to love...

 But not all people know how to remain in love with one person for a long period of time..

I guess those ugly relationship made me scared to love again...

 

I hope that I can met a real man..

A real man that can stay loyal to his woman without getting sidetracked by easy girls...



It's been a long time I didn't updates my feelings

I'm doing good actually

I feel that I'm getting myself back

The feeling of being single again is great

 

I have losing myself slowly due to the past relationship

I've ignore people around me and made him as priority

Dare not too close wif others boy because I scare he will not comfortable

And guess, what I get? Everytime I ask myself, do I really deserved this?

 

And actually, everything happens for a reason..

The failure of this relationship was not totally his fault..

Before he cheated on me, I admit our relationship has slowed down

Maybe due to too long staying together, and we taking everything for granted

There's no new sparks being created

 

This is the reason he gave for cheated on me...

Well... For me, relationship slowed down is not the reason for you to betray a relationship..

If you can't give a gal what she wan, why don't you leave her instead of drag her..

It's almost 7 years we been together.. I already treat him as part of my family...

I believe he has the same feeling as me...

 

Actually, he treat me really good..

Before all of this happens, I'm always be thankful to god for let me met him..

I supposed that because I never expect that he will do this to me makes me hurt to the max..

The hurts that given by him, totally cover all the good things that he have done previosly

Honestly, I wasn't sure whether I can still forgive this man...

Till now, when I recall those things that he has done, my heart will still pain...

 

During past few months, I have already given him a lot of chance..

 Based on what I observed is I shall stop myself giving him chance anymore..

He just keep on disappointing me.. Again and again..

I'm wondering, what is the point that he still treat me good but at the same time hurt me again?

I guess, the wound between us, won't recover anymore right? 

It's public holiday and I got nothing to do

and lazy to go back office too

Text my sister and ask for yam cha

But in the end yam cha becomes dinner

 

She insist to go the Soon Fatt Restaurant eat crab

She keep on telling me how tasty is the crab, and I have to try it

Therefore I have to forgo my diet plan and join her

 

We drive all the way to Sri Petaling

And thanks god, the GPS didn't 'lou dim' us.. :p