Siew Wei's Diary

 昨天收到消息，说有个朋友去世了。

我希望他在另一个世界能活得更轻松、更幸福。

As July rolled in, I noticed a shift in myself — a sense of calm settling in. No matter what happens, I somehow feel that I can accept it peacefully. When problems arise, I find myself handling them with more ease and absorbing them without being overwhelmed. Maybe this is what people mean when they say the inner “mental noise” is fading away.

I came across a post on Xiaohongshu saying that people need “wood and fire” elements in their chart will have a better time in recent years. I quietly hope that’s true for me too. 😊

My part-time work has gradually become more manageable. After switching to a new laptop and adding a monitor, I’ve really felt the difference. Working with two screens has made me more efficient — I’ve discovered shortcuts I didn’t even notice before. I spend less time on tasks now and can finish work faster, which gives me more personal time. After half a year, I’ve also become more familiar with the flow, so things feel smoother overall. Of course, there are still occasional challenges in communication, but I guess that’s just part of working life.

As for my full-time job, things are still relatively light and stable compared to many others. There are moments that bring stress, especially when dealing with unexpected issues, but I try to take things one step at a time and trust that things will improve. The office is currently under renovation, so there’s dust everywhere — but seeing the space slowly transform and become more comfortable has lifted my mood too. I’m really looking forward to the renovation being done, so my work corner won’t feel so messy anymore!

So that’s how July has been — nothing dramatic, just quiet changes and subtle growth. But it’s in these small moments that I really feel the difference. I’m more calm, more at ease, and more aware of what to hold on to and what to let go of. I hope the days ahead continue in this gentle rhythm… slowly, steadily, becoming better.

 Life has an interesting way of presenting us with choices when we least expect them. Right now, I find myself at a crossroads, faced with a decision that feels both exciting and daunting. On one side, there's the comfort and familiarity of where I am now – a place where I've grown, learned, and built meaningful relationships. My current role comes with stability and a supportive environment, especially with a boss who has been nothing but kind and encouraging. It’s not easy to think about leaving that behind.

On the other side is a new opportunity – one that promises growth, a higher salary, and the potential for advancement. It feels like the next step in my career, the kind of offer that pushes you out of your comfort zone and into a world of possibilities. But as with all new things, there are unknowns. Will I thrive in a new environment? Will the promises of future growth come to fruition?

I’ve always believed that every decision shapes us, not just by the outcome, but by the journey we take in making it. I don’t want to make choices out of fear – fear of leaving something good behind, or fear of stepping into the unknown. Instead, I want to choose based on growth, both professionally and personally.

So, as I stand at this juncture, I’m taking time to reflect on what matters most. Is it stability or opportunity? Comfort or challenge? Whatever I decide, I hope it will lead to greater things, but for now, I'm sitting with the uncertainty, trusting that the right path will reveal itself in time.